a lot of things had been going through my mind lately. lets just say, today in the bus. i think of many things. i realise that ive changed :( boo hoo.

i hate changes.

i dont rememeber my monthsary . i forgot about it. im so sorry dear. thank god baby understands. amnesia eh?

how i wish i can not be so forgetful. its such a sad thing! i feel bad . last time, monthsaries were my thing. i would be the one who remind the other half. not like not. baby whispered t me " happy 5th monthsary" i went "oh fuck! its 18th today?"

haish.

i feel bad.

atiqah, you gotta try harder. but how?

i cant think a lot cause my doctor says so and now, i gotta try to make baby happy. i gotta do something that im suppose to avoid. :(

i hate my life .... boo hoo :(